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taken by Viima!

havahdu

Viiiima took these! Yes, today I did it. (I haven't got time to photoshop those pictures!) Gift from me to myself! :----) Future is coming on!

Ug party with Viima and Eero

Excellent weekend! Excellent beginning of the future, excellent end of school and exams!

Best things in my life

I got a challenge from Anni ! Ten things which are making me happy! Oh yes.

1. Viima. Ihana, upea, olen onnellinen hänen kanssaan. Lovely, gorgeous, I'm happy with her.

2. Kirjoittaminen ja valokuvaaminen. Kirjoittaminen auttaa, kirjoittaminen on onnea, rakkautta, mahtavuutta. Valokuvaaminen on upeinta. Sitä haluan tehdä elämälleni. Writing and photography. Writing helps, writing is happiness, love and grandeur. Taking photos is the most wonderful thing in the world.

3. Päiväkirjat. Moleskine-kirjat on ihania, mutta nyt olen löytänyt oman seikkailijattaren päiväkirjani. Lapsesta saakka. Diaries. Moleskine diaries are lovely, but now I have found my own adventuress' diary. I have written diaries since childhood.

4. Filosofia. On pitänyt minut elossa. Luonut elinvoimaisuuden tunnetta ja onnistumisen kokemuksia. Kehityn sittenkin! Philosophy. It has kept me alive! It has created feeling of vitality and it has given experience of success. I'm developing!

5. Tupakointi. Rauhoittaa, salaisuus! Smoking cigarettes. It's relaxing, shhh, secret!

24.10.2010 edmond

6. Ystävät, rakastan rakastan. Kaipaan ja olen onnellinen heistä. Friends, I love them. I miss them and I'm happy that I have such a great friends!

7. Salaisuudet ja haaveet, pitävät elossa. Kaikki tuntuu selviytymiseltä ja elämän ylläpitämiseltä, mutta onko siinä mitään pahaa? Salaisuudet ovat ihania, kutkuttavia ja rakastettavia. Haaveet vievät, se on ihanaa. Ne aiheuttavat unettomuutta, mutta ei se mitään. Secrets and dreams! Those things keep me alive. Everything seems to be surviving and upolding life, but is it wrong? Secrets are lovely, they titillate me and they are so adorable. My dreams keep me going, it's lovely. They cause sleeplesness, but it's okay.

8. Tulevaisuus, ilman sitä ei pärjää. Se tekee minut onnelliseksi. Future, without it I can't survive. It makes me happy.

9. Tatuoinnit, uudet rakkaudet. Olen innostunut ja kihisen! Salaisuuksii. Tattoos, new loves. I'm excited and bustling.

10. Kevät, elämäni parasta aikaa. Spring, the best time of my life.

I'll give this challenge to Viima, nanita, nuppu, Liina, kkakara and Pinja. Haastan teidät!

Intangible

This is one of those pictures which I took yesterday. Here Viima looks very haggard. I'm not sure if that's right word. Hurja. Confused. Careless.

This is the last day when I have to read for matriculation exams. I have psychology exam tomorrow and then it's over. Then I'm going to be undergraduate. (ylioppilas? I don't know good words today)

I don't have time to think about those big mysterious questions about life and existence. I don't know anything about gods and deity or divinity. Do I have a need for thinking those questions? Sometimes I think I should think about life more. I have just focused on surviving through these useless and distressed days. I have thought books, reading, writing, exams, school, entrance exams and future. I thought everything about how it will be in future, where I am going and why.

I have dreamt and that's all. 

I have been cruel to myself. I have hated and loved. Everything and nothing, both and everything at the same time. I find it quite hard to get things said in English. Perhaps I can do that in future. 

I have searched new apartments. I want to move somewhere else. I don't want to live in ugly and expensive apartments where I'm not happy.

I am happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long
The future is coming on
I am happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long

My future is coming on
Is coming on
Is coming on
Is coming on

Sometimes I'm desperate about future. I think everyone is telling about uncertainty of future, so should I also be scared? 

I got David Hockney's poster from Viima. My spring present was wrapped on it. I don't know if I can say it that way. But I don't care. I'm quite blurred.

The morning was better than for ages. I wake up and here was light and warm. I made some coffee and read psychology. I feel gloat when I read that another students haven't read that much. Hah. Am I bad because I feel so.

David Hockney, have you seen his photos?

Sunshine, not

I took some black and white photos of Viima. I want to learn how to photoshop properly. More pictures coming.

are we

He or she is making me so happy

Viima and his another person

Blogs have confused my mind. Viima and I did a video about our chin faces. It would be so much easier to write in Finnish. But I'm not going to give up. This day has been quite nice even if I woke up about six o'clock in the evening. I don't like waking up after two o'clock. It feels like everything is flowing away.

Edmond herself and her another person with lovely pose

I have read lots of psychology and I have only one matriculation examination left. It is so soothing. Today I have read about motives and different kind of motives. Biological and cognitive point-of-views. There was story about philosopher named Kalle Haatanen and his thoughts about tolerance. The price of tolerance is tediousness. Fanatics have really good time while spreading words about their ideology. Feverish belief to their own goals are unquestionable. It was quite interesting.

Viima started his own blog and I'm very happy that he finally did that. I have been waiting for this moment for a while. You can find his blog here ! For now he is writing in Finnish.

I can wait for getting new camera. Canon eos 5d mark iii is really fantastic, I would love to see that irl and try to take pictures with it. But at least, now I would be very happy if I could get Canon eos 5d mark ii. Maybe one day. Maybe.

Perhaps I could write some book critiques here when my exams are over and when I have time to concentrate on some other things like reading books which I really want to. This year has been really exhausting but I'm going to survive. Everything is almost done. I feel sorry that everything in my mind are releated to school. It's depressing!

Those pictures were taken in summer 2010. Then I was in Budapest, Hungary with my mum. In June I'm going to Budapest with Viima! I can't wait!

Building pinhole camera

Today was the English exam and it was difficult I think. It didn't go so well what I expected. But I don't mind. I'm happy that I'm going to graduate. I have only one exam left and then I can focus on some other issues like entrance examinations for universities. Today I fulfilled those application things for universities and polytechnic. My first choice is the university of Tampere, where I can study visual journalism. Today the advance tasks (those photography tasks which I must return when I go to the entrance exam) were revelead. This year those tasks were more interesting than before. 

Viima came and now he's building a camera! He bought spring presents to us, pinhole cameras which we can build! He is so systematic and intent. I must adore him. 

 

let me entertain you

I'm so happy. Finally spring is coming and I can feel free again. Everything is going to change. Maybe I shall write in Finnish for a while. That's how I could get myself to write more and more. But I don't know. Somehow I like writing in English. It's quite hard and challenging but it's good. Viima started today her own blog and I'm super happy! I have got nothing important to say.

Last spring Viima (right) and I (left) visited Helsinki. Then we had long hair styles! (now we both have quite short hair-do)

Edmond

Anni is lovely, she styled my hair! She made my day. My favourite colours in heads are red and black. I have had red hair for three years now and I can't be more satisfied to that colour. After my final exams I'll update my blog more rarely!

Viima making sushi

Isn't she cute! I have an English exam tomorrow.